Detailing the Car

As I type this, my car is being made to look sparkling and new again. I want this to be a metaphor for me, as I need to take care of myself this way. Exercise, eating right, and above all, stopping the mental self-flagellation at which I am all too practiced.

I just spent a weekend with law school friends that was wonderful. But it was shadowed by the knowledge that I have lost my job and did not feel I could tell them. Keeping a secret like that is very stressful, so much so that I find myself tearing up due to the relief of typing it here.

So, this week marks the beginning of three months of intensive job searching. I intend to do something completely different, maybe not even a law job. I am not sure yet what that will look like, but I am trying to keep hopefulness in my heart so I can believe that whatever it is, it will be a better fit for me.

I am glad I feel okay sharing this with you.